Things have changed, I believe that everyon that is in my life is there for a reason. So many people have come and gone and it hurt at the time and I guess maybe it truly is your time to go whether I love you or not (which I do). I’ve learned that shit will happen, and people are going to hurt me and I’m going to hurt them but I will move on. I’m so sick of stressing myself out over little things that will soon not matter.. I’ve realized that the more I try to make myself happy, I focus to hard and I start thinking about all of the shit that can go wrong and surely enough everything does go wrong.. So I’m done trying to be how people want me to be, I’m done making others happy to make me feel good about myself. Maybe i sound selfish but I don’t give a fuck I need to be selfish. People think nothing is ever wrong and my biggest problem is my relationship, if only they knew me.. So i’m going to be me, and I am Freeing Myself.

As soon as I pressed sent I knew I was acting on anger, I knew I was making a mistake and on my sixth time pressing the end button it says “message sent”. I’m so sorry.. I didn’t mean to hurt you, but you you shut down on me.. You changed, you snapped instead of telling me what was truly going through your mind.. I know what I said wasn’t okay and I didn’t want to ruin our friendship, and although I know you no longer wanted the friendship, Canyon Ryan I am so sorry.. I love you